Recently, I’ve been struggling. I’ve been struggling with motherhood, depression, anxiety. Just trying to make it through every day. I’ve slacked on my blog, and I’ve been slacking with my soap making. Each day is different, some days I feel so inspired while other days I’m just ready for the day to be over with. As most of you know, right now I’m a stay at home mom, I mean being a mom itself is exhausting honestly, for me though personally, being a stay at home mom has exhausted me even more, don’t get me wrong, I love my children so much, but some days between the temper tantrums, the fits, the constant picking up every hour, having to try and get everything done during a one hour nap is very hard for me. By time I get everything cleaned up, dishes, laundry, toys, etc my youngest (Blakelyn) is waking up from her nap, which leaves me no time to blog or be creative, and honestly that depresses me sometimes. Blakelyn is a ball of energy and I mean she does NOT sit still, she’s constantly on the go, and she loves to mess up and she’s very destructive, I think we hit the “terrible two’s” a little early (lol). This child keeps me on my toes, and I love how she's just full of energy, but with that being said, by time bed time comes around, I’m literally exhausted, I do good to watch a youtube video or eat a late supper, so I rarely get any “me time” which I honestly think is EXTREMELY important, in order to take care of the household, your kids, your significant other etc, you HAVE to take care of yourself also. Everyday is different for me, some days are great and others I find myself so depressed and feeling alone that I struggle to get out of bed. I think every mom goes through this and if you’re a mom and you haven’t, I am so happy for you. If you are a mom currently going through this, I understand and I’m here, and I know I personally get tired of everyone telling me it will get better because for me, some days I feel as if it’s just getting worse. I know that it will get better with time, that one day I’m going to look back and I know I am going miss this, I’m going to miss the jibber jabbering of a small child, the excitement she gets when she learns something new, even the stubbornness when I tell her no. Some days I get extremely emotional because Blakelyn is my last baby and she’s almost two, I get sad knowing that I won’t be able to have anymore children but I know I made the right decision for me because I know my body couldn’t handle another pregnancy and I don’t think mentally I could handle more kids as I struggle daily between my 9 year old and 19 month old. I don’t open up much on social media because people can be downright cruel behind a computer screen, I wanted to open up though because I know I’m not the only one, so many people, mothers, fathers struggle day to day and they don’t say anything and that’s a lot to let build up and carry. So if you are struggling, whether it be with motherhood, fatherhood, anxiety, depression, life, you are NOT alone. Reach out to someone, a friend, a family member, even reach out on social media, make a blog post, write in a journal, just don’t let the weight of that stress build up. Know that you are worthy and you are doing the best you can and tell yourself that everyday. As mothers lets lift each other up and NOT put one another down. Don't compare yourself to other mothers, everyone is fighting a battle that you can't see. I see so many people down stay at home moms, they'll say oh it must be nice to not work and stay home all day. Some days it is nice, while others it's a true struggle, I also see people down working moms, saying oh you are always working, and never with your children (child). You can't win in today's society, unfortunately that's just the way it is, but you know what, no matter if you are a working mom, a mom going to school , a stay at home mom, you are doing the best you can and you are a GOOD mom, do NOT let anyone tell you different. We're human, we all struggle, we all have days where we feel like we are falling apart and that's okay. Cry if you need to don't be ashamed to have emotions, cry it out, just don't unpack and live there. If you find yourself feeling alone with horrible thoughts, please reach out. If you know of someone struggling with depression and are not sure how to help them, reach out.
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- Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA): 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
- National Hopeline Network: 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
- National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
- National Youth Crisis Hotline: 1-800-448-4663